My birthday's coming up on the 16th.. I'll be turning 20. I've been feeling a lot of anxiety about it. I just want to explain if I've been absent or short-winded it's not you, it's really just me. I'm afraid to be alone and I need to get over it. 20 years old! D:

And..this might come across as random but I'm really getting sick of people calling me fake and stupid. I've been getting it a lot from people both who know me and who don't. I'm a very happy person now.. I used to be a very depressed and angry person. I've made changes in my attitude and outlooks on life and I will not apologize for the joy I express when I'm with people I love and care about. I'm not stupid because I laugh every 5 seconds. I'm actually an incredibly intelligent person and just because you don't and WON'T relate laughing and shaking ass with brainpower does not mean it can't happen. I really don't like to list off accomplishments because I feel everyone can do them but if you think I'm some idiot please by all means please sit me down and tell me why you find yourself to be above me and we'll see who is the idiot. I grew up poor as fuck living in a trailer. I was partially deaf as a child. My mom worked and was in college, I watched my dad die. I was raped and molested several times. You think you know me? You think you have me all figured out? Me and my stupid, laughing, girly self? Just because I'm different? I hardly doubt it. I've been through more pain than most people will go through in their entire lives. So don't you dare generalize me and tell me I'm stupid because I'm joyful for my life. I goof around a lot, I know. But please just try and take the time to get to know me before you look so far down at me. We all have different experiences, I am who I am because of them. I don't regret a damn thing and I forgive everyone for everything. Why? Because it's who I am. I'm always going to make weird comments and jokes. I'm just.. tired of being misconstrued. I let it slide but no more. I don't have the patience to deal with judgmental fools any longer.

Anyways. I love you guys. Especially `love4art because she's the sweetest. I just needed to clear the air and put my foot down! I hope it wasn't mean. Thanks for understanding! Y'all are the best.

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R.I.P., Taylor Behl